Such a nice day today ya.

Heehz.

4e3 did the speakers' corner bid today with 4t1 as audience. Friggin' lucky of them ya. *Sigh*

Anyway, am kinda nervous. Mine's on this friday. Come down support leh ! Lolx.

~*~

Last year's sec4 people came back. Johnathan, edwin, quanqi and me practically went around asking everyone for a view at their results slip. We didnt even know 60% of those we asked. =/

Called gerald at 3pm and as expected. 6 points for L1R5. *Huge sigh*

Lyon. Hahahahaa. Old man made it leh. =P Btw. Jotya's purple gold CT is way beautiful.

Edmund... Didnt call. Mmm.. Maybe calling later. See first. Lolx.

Think will be hiding under the pillow tonight as i sniffle. So sad. Gerald's results will kill me.

*Dying*


Urmx. I'm sorry mason. Forgive me ? =/

Tomorrow's the day i'll be seeing them again. Wee~ Exciting. Hope everyone has a pleasing result. x)

Am definately staying to catch them, maybe will hang around in the canteen while waiting for dear mr loh to finish his speech first though. Hur hur.

Last year, there was only natasha, stayed back for fun and caught the event. Yeaah.. Speaking of which.. I miss peisi. She's the best senior i've came across ever. =)

Mmm.. Calling gerald first at 2.15 since his school's principal's not giving speeches.. Followed by Lyon at 2.45 ..

Maybe will drop edmund a line too if i feel nice. I'm still afraid of calling. =/ It took me 6 freaking months to shake him off you know ?!! Lolx. I'm creeped out. Yea.

Which bring me to my next topic. JY, maybe i'm jinxed too. Haha. The ones i want to last never seem to but the one i try to shake off always seem to stick on like glue. Why ? Why ? Why ?

Why do guys that like me have to be so weird ?! Why cant i have some nice normal guys that are nice and not so selfish ?! Why do i have to get guys who are so noobish ?! Why the insecure ones ?! What's with the bengs ?! And the chubby ones ?! Worst still, the over-possisive ones ?! Why ? Why ? Why ?

Always after i convince myself to stop playing, you have to tell me that it's time to move on. *Sigh*

Sometimes i wonder if i should just turn les.

But then, no female would want me ya ? =/

Besides, homosexuality is baaaddd.


Oh well. Back to main point. Stay strong bro. I WILL call you. Not to make you cry. Just to check that you are not going to do anything stupid. Love you bro. x)

Boo. Extra long entry. You have been warned. x)

Cross country today. Couldnt locate anyone familiar. Then i spotted this green path facing the reservoir. Didnt realise was them at first.

Then i saw QuanQi's lustrous hair. But the shirt was wrong. Nevertheless, i decided to walk up to check. Boo. Was them. Seems like most of them went to buy our house tee.

Oh and.


I came in last. Yes. I believe you are all gasping at my wondrous achievement at the moment and i can tell you all. It wasnt easy.

'nuff said.



We(Johnathan, Edwin, KianYan, BoonHui, QuanQi, Rosalind, Wileen, YuTian, KaiTing, ShiHui and me) decided to have lunch and catch a movie after that. Since the opinins were divided into "white noise", "howl's moving castle" and "anything", a referendum was carried out. White noise won 4 vs 3.

In the end, we watched howl's moving castle. I was like "uhh.. i not going le" and they decided to give way. I didnt do anything. Really. I swear. Heeeehz.

KianYan left after lunch and we rushed up for the movie. Was nice. The ending was rather abrupt though.

After coming out, we ran into karen and carisa~

Yadayada.

I decided that it was time to clique hop.


So i did.

We(Karen, Carisa and me) went to look for my socks. After an hour, we found the knee length socks i wanted. Heehz. I'm gonna wear it on thursday. Serious.

Oh and before that. I ran into someone. Vanessa~ Guess who~

Haha. Yea. Was bernard. Chit chat for a while and left. Then you know what ? I realised that i forgot to get his number. I lost the notebook with the camp people's number, so yea. =/

Oh well.


On way to bedok, someone called karen's phone. Karen didnt understand, what the person was saying, so she passed it to carisa.

Carisa: Who are you ?
Guy: Zhong yi ! You who ?
Carisa: Carisa. How you get this number one.
ZY: Huh ? Carisa who ? Eh. That round round girl call what ar ? Carisa izzit ? Got her number not ?
Carisa: What round round one ?! I AM CARISA.

At the end, realised the call was well, some of those "complicated-outisde" stuff that i have never been interested in knowing more about, so yea. Was rather amusing to see how blur those people can get.

Hmm.. Will i endanger my life posting that ?


Hope not.

I still have yet to share my story with Grace. Haha.

God works in mysterious ways ya ? >.<

SA rugby players are idiots. I mean, hey, they're supposed to be the best right ? Yet they dont even play by the rules. That's like so totally crap. Heh.

Anyway, softballers seem to be full of spirit. Ms Tan is confident of a C and B division championship. Heh. B division i'm pretty sure if they work for it, they'll get it. But as for the C division players... Hard.

Sidetrack abit; as you all know, Monday is the day where the O level results for the 2004 batch is released. I'm so excited. Lolx. Before you start slamming me for being an inconsiderate twerp, gimmi a moment.

I'll be taking my o's next year, so... I'm just watching the reactions. I want to be the one hopping about. Not the one sulking in a corner. =/

Anyway, i told lyon that i'll call him that day after he gets his results.
His reply ?

"If you call, i'll sure cry."

Come on la. Bro. Full faith in you. You wont do that badly. Haha. =)

Good luck people.


My favourite phrase of the moment;
Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light. - Micah 7:8

Spinning in my Room:
Show You Love - Jars of Clay

Mmm.. Life's normal. Very normal. Only thing different is the sms i no longer get at night. I miss it. Somewhat. Haha..

Am having my ss and emath common tomorrow. Have not started revision for either. *Sigh*

Anyway, took the below from somewhere


But what exactly is love? Highly Subjective.

But in brief:

L-Listen O-Overlook V-Voice E-Effort

Love is to Listen to the needs of the other party, giving without asking for returns

Overlook the faults and find the plus point of the other party,

Voice out & say sweet things and express your happiness and words of encouragement for the other party,

Putting in Effort, keep putting in more time to find the world of love.


Mmm.. Gonna take a nap now. Mugging tonight. *Sigh* This is not doing any good to my dark eye circles.. >.<

As i was looking at my blog links. Was wondering if i should check joel's page for any sort of updates. In the end, i decided against it and instead, checked my email. So guess what ?

Joel replied to my email.

*Screams*

Seriously, if he ever comes down, even if the church is at woodlands or something, with their service starting at 7, believe me, i'll be there. Worst come to worst, call contacts and camp over. Hahaha.

Joel inspires.

I mean, this year was the second time i was listening to his court speech and i cried again. It's like, someone manage to have so much faith even after suffering so much since such a young age!

His unshaken faith despite all those happenings is something that we should truly learn from.

I went joging yesterday. This was what happened.

I took a nice, soothing and refreshing bath. The type that makes you feel relaxed and wanna sleep that type. So, after coming out, i turned on the computer. I first saw joshua online, chatted for a while with him and then decided to go jogging. About 10 -15 minutes after i took a nice calming bath. *Sigh*

Jogged not long, maybe just 2km or so when i decided to return home. ( Means 4km in total wor. =P )I was jogging on/at/along siglap link mah. Haha. Anyway, so took a cold shower and as you've guessed, still felt hot. Crap. I must be nuts to jog after i took a nice bath. >.<

I found the letter i wrote to him last October but never gave. Reading it makes me sad. Yes, i feel normal already, until you start raking up past issues. I'm writing another letter now. I'll hand this and the old one to him. When he finally gets over the fact that I wouldnt start crying and apologising in a bid to get him back that is. Haha.

Karen, with regards to your question during recess..

I still do. Just that, i dont think that harping over it will help. I still think of things that might have changed this if i had spoken up earlier. If i did hand that letter to him then. But like i said, no point harping over things.

God's will perhaps. Haha.

I feel like changing the template. Yes. I really like it. But the teddies just dont make things any better.

I am feeling better now.

At least i tell myself i am.

Give me a few more days people.

To stop making myself sad. It's easy.

Feels slightly numb. But yea.

Yet. Thinking of all the things. I feel angry. Hurt by what you've done.

I dont want to forget. What happened. But i cry everytime i recall.

You lied. Deceived.

Why did things have to end up like this ?

I want to talk.

No wonder they say that if you dont love. You hate.with


Being together is not just about loving someone. Being together is about a compromise between two people.

Spinning in my Room:
Testify to Love - Avalon

I think i mentioned it before to some people that i love this song.

Haha. Yea. It seems to heals me everytime i feel down. Have played it 46 times today as i am typing this. Starting from 6.30 ?

I dont feel as bad now. Most likely reality'll set in tomorrow morning. Will go jogging if i finally find the will to do so. Haha.

A quote from the card i received for my birthday

"I have been praying sometime for you now. Would really, really want you to know the Lord. I know it seems a little awkward for me to suddenly mention this, but when it comes to you last days, your lonely days, God is all you can cling onto. When people around fail you, when I fail you, only God can sustain you. Above all, that is the most important."

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

Booya.

So we mark the end of this journey.

You are selfish if you think that this would be better.

Anyway. I decided to do abit of math.

170 days. Oh well. That's a new record. =)

Am i sad ? Of course i'm sad. I felt cheated.

You told me. We dont talk much nor go out much.

Point. You rarely tell me anything. You're usually the one that cant make it.

Obviously i felt cheated.

Before anything i already felt this way.

Just that i felt.

Perhaps i was too selfish and that you needed your time.

Thus i just kept quiet about it.

Now this happens.

You were the one with a busy schedule.

You were the one busy with the bloody tv.

I seriously didnt understand why i had to fight for airtime with an inanimate object.

And you still dared to tell me we drifted apart ?!

Heh. Thanks.

You're still a great friend though. But i really need some time now.


Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevers.
1 Cor 13:4 - 13:7


I held on through then with this and i'll hold on with this for now.

english and history common tomorrow

Spinning in my room:
You Are My King (Amazing Love) - Newsboys

Having a history common test tomorrow. I have, for once, decided to read through the more "model" answers written by some of my fellow history pupils in an attemp revise

Yet. I am stunned.

"Many territories of Russia were loss and there were a lot of damages caused to the building"

Can someone explain to me what is she trying to say ? *Sigh*

I need English tuition or something. I'm greedy and want a freaking A.

Bought socks today ! Haha. Daniel, you broke your promise. Meanie. =(

Went down to tampines with kangli, bought socks, another pair of shoe laces(dont ask) and a new lipbalm. The neutrogena was drying my lips worst that before application. *Sigh* I hate it when the skin starts peeling. Food tastes weird then.

Made a few small claims with mum just now and now have some spare cash at hand. *Sigh* Life is boring nowadays. I dont even feel a lack of money. Only thing that upsets me is my fats. I need to lose weight. A lot.

Must burn fats ! Must study ! Argh !

Mmm.. According to andrew(poggy), today is jlaM day while joy claims that today is aljM day.
If you even have that bit of brain cells, i believe you get what they're trying to say. They're like so cute. Lolx.

valentines

Spinning in my room:
(There's Gotta Be) More To Life - Stacie Orrico

Happy Valentine's Day ! >.<

Mmm.. I rushed out of the place and forgot to bring gerald's flowers. Lolx. Only reason i remembered the rest of the stuf was coz i stuffed them into my bag last night.

Anyway, met up with mason in the morning. Gave him something. Was a pink dolphin(Same as wilfred's).

Was amusing seeing all those people carrying so many bouquets of flowers around school. Then as usual, the guides got a stalk of rose each. School tradition. Haha.

Managed to give out most of the stuff today. They seemed rather pleased in sense. Haha. Karen was like "My first valentines gift leh" Gal. That's coz you've high expectations lor. Mmm.. JY !! Quick quick ! I take back then you give her something first ! Haha !

Oh yea. My friend commented that wilfred has good taste. >.<

Highlight of day. Keroy and his diamond ring for his darling. I still think he's nuts.

I linked Joel Sonnenberg.

The dms people should've heard of him and his story. The Imperfect Hero.

Will be trying to get his book.

His faith in God and attitude towards life and its challanges is truly remarkable.

More - Matthew West

Take a look at the mountain
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of me

Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever
Where you go is where I am

And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look round you
I'm spelling it out one by one

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today and tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love your more

Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to me

And I want you to know
That I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today and tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love your more

I love you more, yeah
Shine for me
Shine for me
Shine, you shine, you shine for me

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today and tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I love your more

I love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine, and you shine for me too
I love you yesterday and today through the joy and the pain,
I'll say it again and again
I love you more
I love you more
I see you, and I made you
And I love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I love you more than the sun
And you shine for me

“More” was inspired by a piece of refrigerator art. Two children painted a bright yellow sunshine for their dad. The words, “I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE SUN,” were scribbled across the page. As I looked at that picture, I felt like God was whispering those same words to my heart.

Bought stuff needed for monday. Only problem is that classrooms're locked up on mondays. Tsk. I need an alternate route.

~*~

The mere thought of joshua(lee) makes me sick. Remind me to never ask him again. Think i'll need to be avoiding him again. *Sigh*

~*~

Tuition's changed to monday for the coming week coz YuQing's bf isnt free that night. She's demanding flowers from me now. Haha.

~*~

Overall, i'm not in very pleasant mood today. Have not really felt this way for some time. So dont come bitching to me 'bout how you're worst off and all unless you're looking for trouble.

*Sigh* Am desperately trying to get someone to go out with on friday. Urm.. First, must thank gerald for the offer bah. Have not really decided if should take up the offer. 6 person lor. Thanks.

Anyway, am now still nudging gerald, trying to annoy him into going out with me. I'm mean, most likely i wont succeed coz he's got plans to go shopping with the guys from his class. Class bonding activities come in all sorts of packagings nowadays. *Sigh*

Sidenote abit, Gerald, you're like damn thick skin lor. Lolx.

Check out Josh's blog. His first week in school. Seems pretty fun. Good that he's stil alive and kicking. Go panda !! LIke what i said, have fun there, but dont you dare forget us !! =P

Poggs are pigs. Andrew claims. *Shrugs*

Anyway, summary of the weekend.

Pool is b o r i n g. I mean, i seriously dont get what's so interesting about two person using sticks to hit some coloured balls. =/

I rather spend my time talking to people. I like listning to people talk. Haha.

I changed my tuition's urmx.. operation system. Lolx. Having classes once a week on friday evenings at 8, alternating the amath and emath lessons. Got nagged abit by yuqing la. The usual. Should not slack. Should stop going out so much. Yada yada.

Oh yea. bought this pink bottle. So kewl. Have this slight facination with the colour pink the last few days.. Oh well.. Haha.

I'm planning something for the gals on valentines. HAve not decided on what yet. See first. Anyone willing to go out this friday ?

~*~

Liyana says she misses me. Lolx. Cant blame her. =P

This is crap.

I should stop joking before people start getting hurt due to it.



I love you.

I miss you.

Haha.

I was just joking.



Butterflies in my stomach. Heart pounding against my chest.

Story replaying non-stop in my mind.

This cant be happening.



I think the joke's on me.

Spinning in my room:
Unspoken - Jaci Velasquez

Day started out fine. Yadayada.

Almost got into trouble with some 5a gals. Trouble began when wileen defended edwin when xiaojia "commenting" about him. Anyway, so xiaojia brought up her "gang" during recess and they(wileen and xiaojia) were trying to "settle things peacefully" (Okay, they shouted a little and xiaojia swore a couple of time la)
Oh. Did i mention that cheryl was there too ? The damn chio one from choir. Anyway, cut short, they argue and slightly before recess ended, cheryl called them off. Xiaojia left us with a parting word. Fuck. And some other unknown dilect swears that i dont really understand and my pals didnt wanna explain to me. >.< Lolx.

Seemed settled ? Not really. Cheryl later brought this guy from her class down. They kept walking pass our class. Rosalind, hving an overactive imagination, thought that cheryl wanted to get someone to "take care" of wileen, so, she "ran in and tried to block wileen from their sight". *snickers* I should post their photos. Oh. And since i was feeling rather pissed with them, so sitting next to the door, i slammed it shut. =)

Xiaojia later messaged ros asking me and wileen to stay in our class after school, claiming that "her friend wanted to talk to us."

Yadayada. Long story cut very very short, things were relatively settled. Lolx.

We visited the old folks home after that for cip (If you know of any activities, tell me!! I'm desperately in need of them >.<) I took this video of them there, while they were performing a dance. Haha.

I've been trying to contact andrew for the past week. You notice he never seems to appear when you're looking for him and always seems to be around when you dont need him. *Sigh* I wanna know the meaning behind poggs

Oh. And i'm getting a breakout again. I'm so upset. =((

Spinning in my room:
You Are My King ( Amazing Love ) - Newsboys

*Bounce* Only complain i got was from john, complaining that "your blog caused my comp to hang" and that it's "very blue"

Heehz.

Day was fine. Got to sleep during my chinese test coz i was feeling faint. Hee. But gotta take re-test la. Delvin had this weird look when i didnt have a paper to hand up. Was rather amusing. Haha.

Mmm. Skipped pe. Was so sastifying seeing my class doing shutter run in the scorching heat while nadine and i were sitting in the comfort of the canteen, under the cooling and refreshing fan watching them train. =D

Oh yea. It seems that i skipped not only emath yesterday but ss and chem too. *Sigh* Took only the emath paper today though. Lucky i ran off fast, if not today had to take like 5 tests in total. -.-

Easiest paper today was a math. Mmm. That's a first. Lolx. E math was horrible. I was so blurrrrr that i mixed up horizontal and vertical. I had to re-do the whole freaking question after i completed everything !!! Argh. Nvm. Was still okay. Lolx.

Oh well. Better start on my english homework before ms kwan starts asking me to pump again. Heh.

Did i mentioned i lost 30 bucks yesterday ? Still no idea where i dumped it though. Very sad. =((

Okay. Is it just me or is the new template rrreally laggy ?

Oh. Hi. Heheh. I change my template. (I believe you've all noticed ya ?) Lolx. Mmm.. Was actually done up this morning since i'm sick at home and all. Haha.

Anyway, as i was editing the template, this woman(Ann) from Metta School called up, asked if i'm looking for cip work and all. So, it's kinda obvious i jumped at the chance ya ? So i left my place at bout 2.30 (i was supposed to reach there by that time, but then. Oh well) Helped them do some paperwork and left for my guitar class at 4.15 Was rather worried that i'll be late again but then. Ended up i reached Echo at 5 BUT nor wasnt there yet. So yada yada. He arrived at almost 6 so i didnt have any class today. -.- Waste my friggin' time. Lugging apple pie around isnt easy too. People for some reason, seem to enjoy staring.-.-

Oh yea. I took bus7 back to bedok, on way back, we(apple pie and me) passed by kallang. *Sigh* This year, my school wont be having a "B" division team for softball. Heh. Lack of members. We lost badly to RI last year and yet we wont be getting back our crown this year. Sad.

Speaking of RI.. Lolx. Number 9 !!! Lolx. Damn cute. Shall not elaborate. Haha. I still remember the first school match i watched was in sec 1. We were forced there. My whole class. Haha. Was a great match though. The RI guys that cheered were damn gay too. Hahaha. Last year only addition objects at match were some RGS people that went to stone there. Urmx. They provided us some laughs. Yea. Keke.

Oh yea. Softball. On way home (Still on us. Got cheated. Took me 40 minutes just to reach interchange. -.-) i saw wilfred. Haha. He dyed his hair. Still looking as cute as usual though. =P

Spinning in my room:
Open Skies - David Crowder Band

Okay.. I'm sick. Mum refuses to let me out tomorrow. Means i'll be missing my emath test. Noooo~~~~~~~~~!!!

I love emath. =)

Anyway, there's this weird feeling bugging me lately. No idea what though.. School ? Maybe. I seem to be rather at peace with myself lately. Until i'm at school. Sad.

Oh well. On another note, i've finished reading "It's Not About Me by Max Lucado" today on my way to the doctor's. Was a rather interesting read.. I shall not comment too much for fear of getting slammed by my "critics".

I love you life. Really. x)


Mmm.. Still going out this saturday ?